You mention that you are going to see a psychiatrist and you can see the judgment in people’s faces.
Youth with diabetes get a wide range of free services through Diabetes NZ including a psychiatrist. I will admit, I had the same thoughts at first as everyone else. Why would I need to see her? This appointment would be pointless.
Boy, was I wrong! She changed my whole perspective on living with diabetes.
The past 2 weeks I have been getting slowly and slowly more upset, some days I would not want to get out of bed and cry for no reason.
Diabetes should not change how you live you life
I had given up the fun I had in my life, including enjoying a glass of wine and cheese and socialising with friends. To me it was easier to stay home then put myself into a situation of being the bore and not be able to do or eat anything.
What did I gain from giving up things I found enjoyable in life? Talking to her I figured that I did nothing it my life for fun or just for me. I was letting the diabetes determine my life and takeover.
I’m completely lost and feel like I have no meaning or purpose with my day.
Talking to her helped change my view on diabetes, and not allowing it to determine who I am. I have three tasks to do to help with this
- Start taking my bloods in front of friends and not being ashamed of it
- Getting out of bed every morning. Even if it’s to move to the couch!
- Making a weekly schedule with times I need to study and go to the gym etc.
So, I’m off to buy a super cute weekly planner from Kikki K, and taking my glucose monitor with me.